Everything is my fault !!!

Things are not going the way it is supposed to go. I am running short of ideas of what else to be done so that I can get more business. There are some set things which everyone does for getting business. Getting leads, meeting clients, Closing deals! I am running around and getting leads, also ensuring that I am meeting them, but deals are not getting closed :(  If I sit down and analyse where I am going wrong I can't really point out something. I have tried everything right from visiting far off branches to going to office everyday. With every passing day it becomes more stressful. Sometime I wonder what am I doing? Off all the job in this world is this the only thing I am capable of doing! Sometimes it gets on your nerves when you are being held responsible for someone else's behavior. Its not so pleasant when you are held responsible if client's cheque bounces or when no one else can find a way to forward an email to a client who do not own an email account you are supposed to do the needful. Each evening when you fail to source an application you are supposed to listen to a long lecture about how its your fault that it didn't happen. Its as if you are the only incompetent piece of shit remaining on this planet earth which the company is tolerating for some incomprehensible corporate reason. It really doesn't matter where you went, how you went, what all did you do to get business that day. If it didn't happen then everything is your fault!

Its as if there is no limit to the kind of pressure you can handle and still be sane. To top it up there are other pressures from friends and family. Everyone intends good but they all demand something or the other. Friends also call up because they are in a fix and they want some help. Its not that I am not happy helping them but its just that when they start expecting things which I am just back after going through all this and they don't even try to understand then it pains. I really do not know how long such an arrangement will work and how much more can I take it. 

Seems Everything is my fault, and I cant find a way to fix it :(