Reaching top is not the problem sustaining it is !

Reaching top is not the problem sustaining it is !

I had heard it for the first time from a manager at Sutherland. Simply put it means you can reach the top by putting in efforts but once you reach the top, sustaining there is the next challenge. This is something what I am experiencing now. Last month I had slogged nice to reach the position where I had. That had bought a lot of positiveness within me. Now there seems to be a struggle to get back to that place. I know how it works all this work needs to become a game. Once that happens then its easy to beat. I am so aware of that feeling when you know your shit so well that no one can challenge you. The sense of control over what you are ought to do helps you perform so well that performance is not an issue at all. I am not sure why is it that I have not been able to achieve that sense still here. 

Over and above all this there is another thing which has come up. I guess most likely I will alienate one of my friend very soon. I don't know who should be blamed for that. More importantly blaming will also not help. Its not yet bad, but I guess there had to be a day for closure and to initiate that a reason was required. Silly reasons are also enough when people want to end something. Suddenly they have lost the sense of humour and some issue have cropped up, or may be this is how long it was supposed to be. I find it strange but its almost a rule I guess whenever I love or care for someone truly, they are forced to go away from me somehow or the other. Anyways I have had enough drama in my life already that I would like this to end without any drama. Although this might be the most pessimist outlook about the relationship but even I had not foreseen such a thing. May be I can't forgive or may be I am a very selfish person and hence such a view. Now I want to invite some stability in my life!